I've been having a good time getting my life together, but I still haven't been able to bring myself to abandon games. They're far too much a part of me.
I've found War Thunder to be a far more consistent and well put together game anymore than fucking current state WoT. ( `³´) Now we can argue over that, but, let's not. At the very least you can probably agree that the trend in game quality is on the up for War Blunder and on the down for World of Corridors...
http://thunderskill.com/en/stat/Cunicularius I've gotten pretty gud. c:
When I was trying to get into Bulba, I played a bit with Crabeatoff, and I was pretty anxious and that made it difficult to play to my usual levels. When he asked me to try and explain my reasoning for my decision making, I remarked to him that I did not really know, and although at that moment my ability to think was clouded, this had in large part been true for much of my time in any game. Playing well was like running or breathing, if you don't think about it, if you don't observe yourself while you do these things, and someone asks you how you do them, your only answer is, "Like this." Even when you do manage to observe and understand the manner in which you perform these actions, their true nature is obscured by an ever present level of abstraction.
I know a lot about lockpicking and raking, but I am not skilled in lockpicking or raking. Just the other day, one of the new regulars at the Zen Center I frequent locked the door to the bathroom, and we couldn't find the key. Although I knew much about how the door could be opened, I also knew that I had no chance of opening it without the proper tools or skills.
In War Thunder I've gotten to the point where I can begin to very adequately describe and explain my decision making. Although I can still get irritated or shaken, and have that process disrupted, I've become familiar enough with it that I can make an attempt to recover it. This was not the case in WoT, either it was there that day or it wasn't, and there was nothing I could do about it but throw myself into matches over and over again until it reemerged on its own.
At least, that's what I can figure. 6w6;