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Random drug screening at work: (false) positives for EDDP, Buprenorphine and Fentanyl (all very heavy painkillers) together with the prescription stuff I have
I was legit spiraling down a "my life is over" trip wondering how I'd explain this one.. result was sent to lab analysis for further investigation and thank god they could see that parts of the profiles necessary to be legitimate were missing.. those were some rough fkn 3 days of hellish anxiety knowing i didn't do that but thinking i was going down anyway
 

Hoping for the best for those in Ukraine.. seen some pretty wild footage I’d rather unsee tbh

Would you say the game has improved over the last 6 months? 
I think it might be the first time the reception seems to have trended upwards for WoT since like 2014

one of my best freestyles for suuure

>decides to give anime a try
>watches jujutsu kaisen, attack on titan, fullmetal brotherhood and akame ga kill
>immediately starts rejecting western storywriting
i'm going to be a weeb forever now aren't i? 
 
the aot story has been stuck in my head for weeks 

Writing a pretty extensive topic on improving for higher level players (2000+wn8 above) but it'll apply to everyone, just that those people will comprehend it better. 
If there are any questions you'd like me to include, I will as long as the topic isn't finished by the time it's asked. This is a general improvement guide, so nothing map/tank specific, but larger concepts. (Improving situational awareness for example), if there are any: ask!

Writing a pretty extensive topic on improving for higher level players (2000+wn8 above) but it'll apply to everyone, just that those people will comprehend it better. 
If there are any questions you'd like me to include, I will as long as the topic isn't finished by the time it's asked. This is a general improvement guide, so nothing map/tank specific, but larger concepts. (Improving situational awareness for example), if there are any: ask!

Writing a pretty extensive topic on improving for higher level players (2000+wn8 above) but it'll apply to everyone, just that those people will comprehend it better. 
If there are any questions you'd like me to include, I will as long as the topic isn't finished by the time it's asked. This is a general improvement guide, so nothing map/tank specific, but larger concepts. (Improving situational awareness for example), if there are any: ask!

Writing a pretty extensive topic on improving for higher level players (2000+wn8 above) but it'll apply to everyone, just that those people will comprehend it better. 
If there are any questions you'd like me to include, I will as long as the topic isn't finished by the time it's asked. This is a general improvement guide, so nothing map/tank specific, but larger concepts. (Improving situational awareness for example), if there are any: ask!

Writing a pretty extensive topic on improving for higher level players (2000+wn8 above) but it'll apply to everyone, just that those people will comprehend it better. 
If there are any questions you'd like me to include, I will as long as the topic isn't finished by the time it's asked. This is a general improvement guide, so nothing map/tank specific, but larger concepts. (Improving situational awareness for example), if there are any: ask!

Uni work officially submitted and only grammatical/small math errors that need fixing for a passing degree in data engineering.. so I've got a lot of time on my hands now. 
I decided to commit back fully, only playing tier 10. Tier 9 is still the same, 4kable- but tier 10 is very different since I really quit maining the game. I came back to check my level - and mark the new rewards (Chief was a bitch but 279 was fkn easy lmao no clue what that fuzz is about) and then AFK until I had some free time again usually for about a week every 2 months of stuff I can focus completely on things like this,  it's too much freshware to play every now and then so playing in bursts always does the trick for me - but now my games have been so infrequent lately the past year that there are 3 maps I still have absolutely no clue what to do on, parts of maps I literally haven't visited or can even orientate firing angles at, and mechanically refining still needs work. Decisions made that can only be assumed as lapses of complete intellect happen and my awareness has gone down to roughly 10% slower. Lead preaiming predicting (a third step to pre-aiming where you predict your shots needed lead for as much aim time to happen as possible between swapping aim dot positions is a skill that I can still do on reflex and sometimes all the other parts are also there - not just all of them simultaneously like they used to. Doing this status mainly to mark the date of the commitment so I can go back to it and see the the progression of how long it'll take to get that good at T10 again - estimating about 3 months until 5K DPG on the non OPs but holy shit man, tier 10 is hard now. The difference between tier 9 and 10 (which used to be the closest) is now the one most far apart. looking forward to the grinding process, it's limit testing for now a while until the limit testing turns somewhat reliable into consistent which requires a pretty extensive game count. Wonder what it'll end up being.
 
What I'm doing is the 7th 907 mark to start, spamming until completion (starting at 65%). It's not as good as it used to be in the games current state so it's going to be harder than ever. I've played heavily past week purely limit testing (yoloing ilke a fucking monkey in the 907 with iOptics and directive since I had like 500 of them from event to see the possiblities. 5k combined even in this meta with 530VR is still fairly easy to hold, but I now went back to iVents and rammer directive to see which one progresses more quickly. (I decided to spend 600 bonds on demounting the iVent and use bounties for this so I can swap playstyles at will)
Everything but Carro/that WZQ and 777 and E6 have been done,  and I can't get my hands on the WZQ/777...  
Now I'll stick to one account only btw, makes tracking so much easier. It's on this account I've done all the hardest ones and have everything important but listed above, which have all the CW rewards marked but E6 and VK72, I've done half the T10s on the acc already so it's a great starting point for pure tryhard.
I guess this is my job now for 3 months.. cool ... been a while since it was  
 
 

Uni work officially submitted and only grammatical/small math errors that need fixing for a passing degree in data engineering.. so I've got a lot of time on my hands now. 
I decided to commit back fully, only playing tier 10. Tier 9 is still the same, 4kable- but tier 10 is very different since I really quit maining the game. I came back to check my level - and mark the new rewards (Chief was a bitch but 279 was fkn easy lmao no clue what that fuzz is about) and then AFK until I had some free time again usually for about a week every 2 months of stuff I can focus completely on things like this,  it's too much freshware to play every now and then so playing in bursts always does the trick for me - but now my games have been so infrequent lately the past year that there are 3 maps I still have absolutely no clue what to do on, parts of maps I literally haven't visited or can even orientate firing angles at, and mechanically refining still needs work. Decisions made that can only be assumed as lapses of complete intellect happen and my awareness has gone down to roughly 10% slower. Lead preaiming predicting (a third step to pre-aiming where you predict your shots needed lead for as much aim time to happen as possible between swapping aim dot positions is a skill that I can still do on reflex and sometimes all the other parts are also there - not just all of them simultaneously like they used to. Doing this status mainly to mark the date of the commitment so I can go back to it and see the the progression of how long it'll take to get that good at T10 again - estimating about 3 months until 5K DPG on the non OPs but holy shit man, tier 10 is hard now. The difference between tier 9 and 10 (which used to be the closest) is now the one most far apart. looking forward to the grinding process, it's limit testing for now a while until the limit testing turns somewhat reliable into consistent which requires a pretty extensive game count. Wonder what it'll end up being.
 
What I'm doing is the 7th 907 mark to start, spamming until completion (starting at 65%). It's not as good as it used to be in the games current state so it's going to be harder than ever. I've played heavily past week purely limit testing (yoloing ilke a fucking monkey in the 907 with iOptics and directive since I had like 500 of them from event to see the possiblities. 5k combined even in this meta with 530VR is still fairly easy to hold, but I now went back to iVents and rammer directive to see which one progresses more quickly. (I decided to spend 600 bonds on demounting the iVent and use bounties for this so I can swap playstyles at will)
Everything but Carro/that WZQ and 777 and E6 have been done,  and I can't get my hands on the WZQ/777...  
Now I'll stick to one account only btw, makes tracking so much easier. It's on this account I've done all the hardest ones and have everything important but listed above, which have all the CW rewards marked but E6 and VK72, I've done half the T10s on the acc already so it's a great starting point for pure tryhard.
I guess this is my job now for 3 months.. cool ... been a while since it was  
 
 

Uni work officially submitted and only grammatical/small math errors that need fixing for a passing degree in data engineering.. so I've got a lot of time on my hands now. 
I decided to commit back fully, only playing tier 10. Tier 9 is still the same, 4kable- but tier 10 is very different since I really quit maining the game. I came back to check my level - and mark the new rewards (Chief was a bitch but 279 was fkn easy lmao no clue what that fuzz is about) and then AFK until I had some free time again usually for about a week every 2 months of stuff I can focus completely on things like this,  it's too much freshware to play every now and then so playing in bursts always does the trick for me - but now my games have been so infrequent lately the past year that there are 3 maps I still have absolutely no clue what to do on, parts of maps I literally haven't visited or can even orientate firing angles at, and mechanically refining still needs work. Decisions made that can only be assumed as lapses of complete intellect happen and my awareness has gone down to roughly 10% slower. Lead preaiming predicting (a third step to pre-aiming where you predict your shots needed lead for as much aim time to happen as possible between swapping aim dot positions is a skill that I can still do on reflex and sometimes all the other parts are also there - not just all of them simultaneously like they used to. Doing this status mainly to mark the date of the commitment so I can go back to it and see the the progression of how long it'll take to get that good at T10 again - estimating about 3 months until 5K DPG on the non OPs but holy shit man, tier 10 is hard now. The difference between tier 9 and 10 (which used to be the closest) is now the one most far apart. looking forward to the grinding process, it's limit testing for now a while until the limit testing turns somewhat reliable into consistent which requires a pretty extensive game count. Wonder what it'll end up being.
 
What I'm doing is the 7th 907 mark to start, spamming until completion (starting at 65%). It's not as good as it used to be in the games current state so it's going to be harder than ever. I've played heavily past week purely limit testing (yoloing ilke a fucking monkey in the 907 with iOptics and directive since I had like 500 of them from event to see the possiblities. 5k combined even in this meta with 530VR is still fairly easy to hold, but I now went back to iVents and rammer directive to see which one progresses more quickly. (I decided to spend 600 bonds on demounting the iVent and use bounties for this so I can swap playstyles at will)
Everything but Carro/that WZQ and 777 and E6 have been done,  and I can't get my hands on the WZQ/777...  
Now I'll stick to one account only btw, makes tracking so much easier. It's on this account I've done all the hardest ones and have everything important but listed above, which have all the CW rewards marked but E6 and VK72, I've done half the T10s on the acc already so it's a great starting point for pure tryhard.
I guess this is my job now for 3 months.. cool ... been a while since it was  
 
 

Uni work officially submitted and only grammatical/small math errors that need fixing for a passing degree in data engineering.. so I've got a lot of time on my hands now. 
I decided to commit back fully, only playing tier 10. Tier 9 is still the same, 4kable- but tier 10 is very different since I really quit maining the game. I came back to check my level - and mark the new rewards (Chief was a bitch but 279 was fkn easy lmao no clue what that fuzz is about) and then AFK until I had some free time again usually for about a week every 2 months of stuff I can focus completely on things like this,  it's too much freshware to play every now and then so playing in bursts always does the trick for me - but now my games have been so infrequent lately the past year that there are 3 maps I still have absolutely no clue what to do on, parts of maps I literally haven't visited or can even orientate firing angles at, and mechanically refining still needs work. Decisions made that can only be assumed as lapses of complete intellect happen and my awareness has gone down to roughly 10% slower. Lead preaiming predicting (a third step to pre-aiming where you predict your shots needed lead for as much aim time to happen as possible between swapping aim dot positions is a skill that I can still do on reflex and sometimes all the other parts are also there - not just all of them simultaneously like they used to. Doing this status mainly to mark the date of the commitment so I can go back to it and see the the progression of how long it'll take to get that good at T10 again - estimating about 3 months until 5K DPG on the non OPs but holy shit man, tier 10 is hard now. The difference between tier 9 and 10 (which used to be the closest) is now the one most far apart. looking forward to the grinding process, it's limit testing for now a while until the limit testing turns somewhat reliable into consistent which requires a pretty extensive game count. Wonder what it'll end up being.
 
What I'm doing is the 7th 907 mark to start, spamming until completion (starting at 65%). It's not as good as it used to be in the games current state so it's going to be harder than ever. I've played heavily past week purely limit testing (yoloing ilke a fucking monkey in the 907 with iOptics and directive since I had like 500 of them from event to see the possiblities. 5k combined even in this meta with 530VR is still fairly easy to hold, but I now went back to iVents and rammer directive to see which one progresses more quickly. (I decided to spend 600 bonds on demounting the iVent and use bounties for this so I can swap playstyles at will)
Everything but Carro/that WZQ and 777 and E6 have been done,  and I can't get my hands on the WZQ/777...  
Now I'll stick to one account only btw, makes tracking so much easier. It's on this account I've done all the hardest ones and have everything important but listed above, which have all the CW rewards marked but E6 and VK72, I've done half the T10s on the acc already so it's a great starting point for pure tryhard.
I guess this is my job now for 3 months.. cool ... been a while since it was  
 
 

a 47%wr W1321bounced 6000 off of his turret off of me spammng gold and minrolling.......

the Kunze Panzer... somehow this wound up in my garage lol
Kinda like it? Feels like the tier 8 RU in terms of damage capability, 4k is super easy for that platform
what I don't understand is why they gave it siege at all.. I've tried it but I have literally never gotten use of unless it is shooting down at someone in a ditch without having to drive down there myself (Redshire middle basically)
Pretty sure they could remove it and this would play identically, totally pointless gimmick?

the Kunze Panzer... somehow this wound up in my garage lol
Kinda like it? Feels like the tier 8 RU in terms of damage capability, 4k is super easy for that platform
what I don't understand is why they gave it siege at all.. I've tried it but I have literally never gotten use of unless it is shooting down at someone in a ditch without having to drive down there myself (Redshire middle basically)
Pretty sure they could remove it and this would play identically, totally pointless gimmick?

yeah i'm done with wot as well - EBRs are just running too rampant for this game to have a single enjoyable possible game anymore so I'm not going to push it
will still be here every now and then - bye for now

playing tanks again - so funny how the instant i turn on stream i potato entirely but off stream it's like.. almost back to normal 

had a solid 4K WN8 session, then came the tilt.. why didn't I stop dear god why can't I stop

37 game win streak in rapid chess 
yeah i found a new main game
 

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after a 15 game losing streak while being top 3 on gold most games got me to understand that wot suffering is literally a breeze compared to the dark infinite pit of league of legends retardation teammates

well that's it - 7 years of wot and 4 of them full tryhard every single game that i managed to endure but league of legends actually broke me
this is probably the first time ever i get tired just even thinking about video games, when they just used to my primary/secondary hobby for like.. half my life
i still get the urge to play tanks sometimes, most times i just end up closing the client again right now but every now and then i play a game in the PTA to see if I still got it, sometimes you get an insane game off and you remember why you kept playing until the next misplay which makes me want to quit as soon as I make one
maybe i'm just tired of gaming? i've gone from ilke 50 hours/w (2016-17 during boosting frenzy) to my standard 10 hours/w during weeklife, but now the past month my total amount of gaming is one game of league at most a day - mostly i'm in the practice tool trying to orbwalk while laning and 1v1s with friends but i've lost the will to grind
it feels like i'm past gaming, it just doesn't excite me right now. it also sucks, because i can't really appreciate the game i spent a good 3-4 years basically doing nothing but thinking about and playing the game which really gave it a unique feeling. I don't get that anywhere else, the sense of really HIGH competition and being able to compete. That drive is also gone, which is probably what I miss more