Bun's thread of Transitional Cataloging and discussion (and shenanigans).

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

Well.  We've hit a bit more of a boiling point I guess.  After days of being scriptured at and I think if I hear the phrase "God created you in HIS IMAGE" one more time I may retch.  No offense, but It's like saying the word Witch over and over again, it stops sounding like a word after a bit. 

 

This email kind of tipped me over the edge today.

 

"Sorry, (My old name) but God created MAN in HIS OWN IMAGE!   Dad & I feel you're making a HORRIBLE MISTAKE -  I'm glad you can't have any surgery for a year - maybe by then you'll have come to your senses.

 

Love, sad Mom"

 

Come to my senses?  This is the same as calling me insane.  Did not appreciate that one bit.  So I replied.

 

"I would still like to know if you read it before or after I requested it not be read.  Why do you keep ignoring the notion that I've already been receiving therapy for over 7 months and I have been out to others and dealing with it upfront and in the open for over two years now?  You keep trying to make this seem like it just happened all of a sudden right now this past week.
 

While I understand, that to you it probably feels that way and I am sorry.  However this simply is not the case.  You're welcome to feel that I'm making a horrible mistake.  You're welcome to be glad I can't fix what I feel is wrong with my body now.  You're also welcome to continue to quote scripture to me.  You're also welcome, to at your own pace, understand that this is what I feel is best for my life. 

What I do not appreciate, is you implying that I am out of my senses, or in other words, insane.  Please have a little more respect for me than that.  I am quite mentally stable, now.
 

A lot of parents believe their transgender children are making a huge mistake, certainly so off the bat when they find out, even more so if they have a deeply religious background. Hence why I was shocked it went so well.  Now, I am getting the results I had first expected.  However, I believe it's more to do with the fact most parents are still in a state of quasi-shock.  Dealing with the emotions and feelings of losing someone they thought they knew for many years.  This is natural, maybe in a few months, maybe in a few years you can better understand me.  I will never not be here to help you if you need it.  I need your help too, your compassion and understanding, and willingness to learn and read into new things that seem foreign. 
 

Be glad that I was able to heal, or you would probably have nothing but a box of ashes instead of a out of her senses daughter.  My life was on the line.  It's not now.  Thank God for that, don't beg him to put me back to what was trying to take my life away."

 

I have to take my soft gloves off now, and at least leave some harder truths.  I can't take much more of the scripture.  I can't.  She already asked twice to know the name of the Church and Priest I spoke to.  I refused to give her that information.  I don't need her calling the church.

 

It's been a hell of a week.  However, there is no time to look back.  I have things to do.

[Dlur 2,350]

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

 

LOL'd SO HARD. So. Hard.

 

My wife also says "I love this person.  Tell this person that I love them."

[Gashtag 12,000]

So much win in that picture

[Dlur 2,350]

I'm pretty sure that was an edit of a Coffee with Jesus strip.  I can't find that one in the original series.  There is one on them "dang gays" though:

 

 

I'm pretty sure this one is an edit also:

[Mogymog 2]

Well glad you're holding on and doing what you feel is best for you Buns. It sucks when family does stuff like that, cause Family is whats most important in life. But sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do... And the truly funny part is this part 'God created MAN in HIS OWN IMAGE', so is she trying to say that women aren't created by god? Or aren't in his image? So, women are created in the image of random particles, I never knew that. By going by the holy book, women are just as created in Gods image as man is, so you aren't doing anything against God, you are simply changing yourself from one thing to another, you are still human, still an image, and still whatever God wanted you to be. Just because you may no longer 'look' masculine, doesn't mean you are somehow less important, or less wanted by whatever diety you follow. ... Just remember, we're all here for ya.

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

Well glad you're holding on and doing what you feel is best for you Buns. It sucks when family does stuff like that, cause Family is whats most important in life. But sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do... And the truly funny part is this part 'God created MAN in HIS OWN IMAGE', so is she trying to say that women aren't created by god? Or aren't in his image? So, women are created in the image of random particles, I never knew that. By going by the holy book, women are just as created in Gods image as man is, so you aren't doing anything against God, you are simply changing yourself from one thing to another, you are still human, still an image, and still whatever God wanted you to be. Just because you may no longer 'look' masculine, doesn't mean you are somehow less important, or less wanted by whatever diety you follow. ... Just remember, we're all here for ya.

I know and appreciate that. I have to remember it's been barely a week. It's sometimes difficult to remain objective as emotional as this makes me. I actually experienced a feeling of lead hands when writing back to her today. Very disorienting but it speaks to the gravity of it to me.

When I have things like scripture pushed at me. Obviously misquoted and entirely misused. It's difficult for me to remain calm. However I understand that I must. I think she's under the impression this is some kind of chop job. She's told me I should see a therapist who knows about this.

The last 7 months of my life have been that. Every weekend lol. I know I told her that. But I'll tell her again I suppose. I have to remain understanding of her side. My side will come eventually. I hope.

[Sploofy 213]

Im happy that you found yourself. My general rule of thumb is "If it makes them happy and doesnt hurt anyone else then there's nothing wrong with it"

 

Coming forward with something like this to such a large group of people is a huge step and I respect you all the more for it!

 

Keep on keeping on.

[Ashlee_Corcoran 26]

So when can we expect bewb pics?

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

So when can we expect bewb pics?

 

So it comes full circle. 

 

Ehh if I had to give an HONEST estimate?  Probably six or eight months to a year on the low end.  I don't rush things.  But don't worry, I'll show all the gross nasty scarring first, and then all the nice later.  BECAUSE I'M STUPID LIKE THAT.

 

YOU MUST LOVE THE BOOBS.  AT THEIR WORST AND THEIR BEST.

 

I will admit.  I'm tickled pink that I get to pick the size.  Of course I'll go with the advice of my surgeon as to whats proper, as I don't want to ever be weird looking.  Healthy, but not over sized.  Not small though I don't think I'd enjoy that.  Healthy is probably the best term I could use right now.

 

Also, fucking ow my nipples.  This puberty thing sucks again.  Still better than the 1st time though. :|

[Dlur 2,350]

So, now that you're going through puberty again as a female this time around are you inexplicably drawn to the concept of reading TEEN magazine and listening to One Direction?  (please say no)

[Roku 2,028]

I'm glad that I'm so out of touch with American culture that I had to look up what "One Direction" was.

 

Now I'm sad because I know.

[TouchFluffyTail 596]

The UK has been ruined for me. I thought boy bands were just a US and Asian thing.

[Ashlee_Corcoran 26]

So it comes full circle. 

 

Ehh if I had to give an HONEST estimate?  Probably six or eight months to a year on the low end.  I don't rush things.  But don't worry, I'll show all the gross nasty scarring first, and then all the nice later.  BECAUSE I'M STUPID LIKE THAT.

 

YOU MUST LOVE THE BOOBS.  AT THEIR WORST AND THEIR BEST.

 

I will admit.  I'm tickled pink that I get to pick the size.  Of course I'll go with the advice of my surgeon as to whats proper, as I don't want to ever be weird looking.  Healthy, but not over sized.  Not small though I don't think I'd enjoy that.  Healthy is probably the best term I could use right now.

 

Also, fucking ow my nipples.  This puberty thing sucks again.  Still better than the 1st time though. :|

 

 

 

Well, I love MY boobs. So does my bf. But who doesn't like boobs?! I didn't think too highly when they started appearing when I was 11. That changed later though, as I play with my boobs. Just sayin'. lol     

 

*Absentmindedly plays with boobs*

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

So, now that you're going through puberty again as a female this time around are you inexplicably drawn to the concept of reading TEEN magazine and listening to One Direction? (please say no)

I read Star Wars books...also..what's a one direction?

[Ashlee_Corcoran 26]

So, now that you're going through puberty again as a female this time around are you inexplicably drawn to the concept of reading TEEN magazine and listening to One Direction?  (please say no)

 

Oh, God... I hope not! Please, Bun say you're not into One Direction now. I was in high school when the whole Jonas Brothers crap was going on... ugh!

I read Star Wars books...also..what's a one direction?

 A GAWD-AWFUL boy band.

 

 

 

[DarkApostle 76]

Fiance asked me to share this bun, hope it helps:

http://www.upworthy.com/she-grew-up-mormon-and-carried-a-big-secret-for-most-of-her-life?c=ufb1

[Dlur 2,350]

I read Star Wars books...also..what's a one direction?

Ok good.  As you know, hormones is powerful magic.  

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

Fiance asked me to share this bun, hope it helps:

http://www.upworthy.com/she-grew-up-mormon-and-carried-a-big-secret-for-most-of-her-life?c=ufb1

 

I'll read it, tell her thank you for me.

 

Very powerful..I'm so happy for her.  I know so much of how she feels.  I spent so much of my life locked away in my bedroom.  I never went anywhere.  Parties, dances, nothing.  I stayed locked away.  She has such beautiful features and very lovely skin.  I don't know what language that is, or where her mother is from but it really shows.  The lack of facial hair, gracious. Some times it's hard for me to remember, that I'm not where she is.  It makes me feel such conflicted things.  Jealousy, anticipation, joy. Desire to move faster.  I truly wish I hadn't done so much damage to myself to get to this point.  Sometimes, it's hard to feel like you'll ever "pass".

 

#jelly 

 

How I feel when I do see asian american mixed transwomen with no facial hair and high cheek bones.

 

 

If they can get through this with their religion, anyone can I would hope.

 

Ok good.  As you know, hormones is powerful magic.  

 

Dangerous juju magic.  You should have seen me the other night.  I have never been unable to control my emotions but wow.  Like, I don't want to be like hurrdurr women r emotional but I have not experienced shifts like that in ever.  It's because my levels are rising and when they get to that even point where they don't rise anymore, I'll be more erm, stable.

[Ashlee_Corcoran 26]

I'll read it, tell her thank you for me.

 

 

Dangerous juju magic.  You should have seen me the other night.  I have never been unable to control my emotions but wow.  Like, I don't want to be like hurrdurr women r emotional but I have not experienced shifts like that in ever.  It's because my levels are rising and when they get to that even point where they don't rise anymore, I'll be more erm, stable.

 

It's (edit: a BIT) easier when you've dealt with them since puberty, but I do still act like an irrational, over emotional bitch sometimes. Seeing as I live with my bf, he takes the brunt of it at all times, but I try to make it up to him when I act that way. I really try not to take it out on him as it (usually) isn't his fault. Sometimes he can be such a dumb caveman though.

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

It's (edit: a BIT) easier when you've dealt with them since puberty, but I do still act like an irrational, over emotional bitch sometimes. Seeing as I live with my bf, he takes the brunt of it at all times, but I try to make it up to him when I act that way. I really try not to take it out on him as it (usually) isn't his fault. Sometimes he can be such a dumb caveman though.

 

I'm sure.  I missed out on all the things I should have learned, but neither my mom or sister are really feminine at all.  I try to keep myself in check at all times.  But, I'm generally a very peaceful person anyway..We'll see how it keeps going I suppose.

[xWulffx 393]

 

Oh, God... I hope not! Please, Bun say you're not into One Direction now. I was in high school when the whole Jonas Brothers crap was going on... ugh!

 A GAWD-AWFUL boy band.

 

 

 

As long as it isn't Menudo it's all good LOL!

[Ashlee_Corcoran 26]

 

As long as it isn't Menudo it's all good LOL!

 

I can't stand boy bands. Gimme Pink Floyd any day!

[xWulffx 393]

I can't stand boy bands. Gimme Pink Floyd any day!

 

The Mighty Zepp!!!

[canadiantrex 2,621]

It's (edit: a BIT) easier when you've dealt with them since puberty, but I do still act like an irrational, over emotional bitch sometimes. Seeing as I live with my bf, he takes the brunt of it at all times, but I try to make it up to him when I act that way. I really try not to take it out on him as it (usually) isn't his fault. Sometimes he can be such a dumb caveman though.

 

Yeah. Hormonal swings are a bitch to deal with. Although I have been known to purposefully poke my wife with the metaphorical verbal stick every now and then.

 

*edit* Look on the bright side, bun: you'll never need tampons!!!

 

*edit2* Seriously, I hate shopping for those fucking things and for pads. There's like 50,000 varieties of them all shoved together with different colors of each variety.