Bun's thread of Transitional Cataloging and discussion (and shenanigans).

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5 minutes ago, AnArmyofBun said:

Due to having been over 400 lbs my blood vessels were much larger than a thin person. They don't shrink. So. I was a mess for two days but now I'm barely bleeding. 

Interesting tidbit. I guess I had just expected they would shrink after some time.

Also for some reason I thought you were doing the more traditional route rather than informed consent. Any particular reason you went informed consent?

Also you made Signy reappear. Hi Signy.

Would it be possible to sort of get a summary of the last like six months while you were off hiding in your burrow? I remember there was you getting sick at one point.

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

25 minutes ago, Inciatus said:

Interesting tidbit. I guess I had just expected they would shrink after some time.

Also for some reason I thought you were doing the more traditional route rather than informed consent. Any particular reason you went informed consent?

Also you made Signy reappear. Hi Signy.

Would it be possible to sort of get a summary of the last like six months while you were off hiding in your burrow? I remember there was you getting sick at one point.

The last six months have been a whirlwind. My relationship with Priya went down hill. She could not control her emotions about sharing me with Signy. On top of her parents breaking her down bit by bit with their religious claptrap. 

She couldn't handle the fact that she would never be the number one focus of my life. That she would have to share that with another. She started making life very difficult for us. The stress was too much and I got very sick and missed my surgical date. She said I'd have time to go and heal. But changed her mind because it was too painful seeing me around with Signy. So I got royally fucked and had to leave and went into money crisis again just to make sure this worked out. 

Its a difficult topic. I loved her very much. But I was very foolish to think she was ready for a relationship so soon after her divorce. Certainly a poly one. She really focused a lot of her aggression and hatred on Signy. Who just paid her rent and kept out of the way. 

I'm sure she now understands getting rid of us was not the best thing to do. But it's done. I dealt with living in an uncomfortable household where if I didn't have sex with someone they felt our connection was weakening. 

Sorry but. I just couldn't. I tried but by the time I was doing it just to put things to peace. I was paying the price for get her instability. I hope she gets better. I really hope she does. But I can't be there. I won't.  I'm sure we weren't perfect housemates but we were quiet and did our dishes. We kept to one space and didn't really interfere with her. But always tried to be there when she had something go wrong. 

I dunno. It is what it is and she has her version  I have mine  

 

 

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Also I thought informed consent was the standard. I didn't know any other way unless I'm confused. 

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

Recovering well. It's been an adventure.  One filled with blood and disgusting smells but we're approaching normal now at least.  Thank god the depends phase is over lol.

Also.  Ive returned to world of tanks.  RIP me.

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How has your physical health, mental health, and self image evolved over the course of your transition?

 

Also I found a rare picture of bun pre-transition.

Im not saying anything with the picture I just thought it was adorable and amusing. Image adapted from http://sarahcandersen.com/.

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I think at this point this is just the Fuzzy posts cute pictures of bunnies thread.

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Bun loves corn apparently

[Dlur 2,350]

Hey Bun, just stopping by to say that I hope things are going well.  

I also want to thank you specifically for humanizing what trans people go through and deal with.  It's been very helpful in trying to convince people I know to not be twats when it comes to all this ridiculous bathroom hullabaloo.

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

On June 16, 2016 at 5:37 PM, Inciatus said:

How has your physical health, mental health, and self image evolved over the course of your transition?

 

Also I found a rare picture of bun pre-transition.

Im not saying anything with the picture I just thought it was adorable and amusing. Image adapted from http://sarahcandersen.com/.

Oh that's a good question. My physical health is about the same after I lost the weight. Fat has begun to distribute to my hips. So. My pants don't fit. But I haven't gained any weight. Lol. My mental health has vastly improved. I feel confident in my own skin for the most part. I'm not worried about people calling me a man anymore. 

My self image has gone from self loathing to actually understanding how I can feel sexy. How I can project that with some confidence. How I can feel that I'm okay to look in a mirror. It's a lot better. 

Behold my glistening bun pecs in that pic.  Savage. 

3 hours ago, Dlur said:

Hey Bun, just stopping by to say that I hope things are going well.  

I also want to thank you specifically for humanizing what trans people go through and deal with.  It's been very helpful in trying to convince people I know to not be twats when it comes to all this ridiculous bathroom hullabaloo.

I'm glad it's really helped. The whole insanity over bathrooms is a complete waste of everyone's time. Im doing okay. Healing has been very hard. I've moved twice. It's been really difficult. But I'm getting there. I wouldn't recommend this surgery to my worst enemy if they could avoid it and live happily. 

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On 01/04/2016 at 5:23 AM, AnArmyofBun said:

But I was very foolish to think she was ready for a relationship so soon after her divorce. Certainly a poly one.

I'll be honest, I haven't seen a poly relationship that didn't have issues after some period of time.

Then and again, I've only seen one so that's no to say it isn't possible. 

Better luck next time :-)

Oh, and congrats on the surgery, etc.

[Sturm_Jager 50]

Hi Bun,

Been lurking for a while on this thread. As someone who thought themselves, against this sort of thing, due to upbringing and what not, I have turned my own opinion (as bigotted as it was) around and I can see through reading through this thread, what you transgender people (If that is the correct term - correct me if I am wrong) go through, suffer through and live through. I definitely have a new found respect, for people that go through this and more. I hope everything continues to go well. 

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On 7/23/2016 at 2:01 AM, OOPMan said:

I'll be honest, I haven't seen a poly relationship that didn't have issues after some period of time.

Then and again, I've only seen one so that's no to say it isn't possible. 

Better luck next time :-)

Oh, and congrats on the surgery, etc.

Some do, some don't.  Usually they stem from one party not understanding or wanting to actually be Poly.  I know a family that it works very well for.  But - it's not exactly the easiest thing.  I doubt I'd try again any time soon.  I'm too tired, and frankly..seriously..I aint that attractive XD

29 minutes ago, Sturm_Jager said:

Hi Bun,

Been lurking for a while on this thread. As someone who thought themselves, against this sort of thing, due to upbringing and what not, I have turned my own opinion (as bigotted as it was) around and I can see through reading through this thread, what you transgender people (If that is the correct term - correct me if I am wrong) go through, suffer through and live through. I definitely have a new found respect, for people that go through this and more. I hope everything continues to go well. 

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Sturm

Bigotry is not what you exhibited.  You simply had an opinion that you changed.  Usually this is what happens with intelligent people.  They think one way and then change their thinking when presented with new information that challenges their prior viewpoint.  A lack of education on the subject of people like myself is a very common thing.  Something I've tried to rectify as often as I can.  It's worn me down, considerably.  The fact of the matter is many people think we want to be trans.  No one *wants* to be transgender.  We just want to be the way we feel we should be.  I sure as hell don't want to be trans.  I never did.  I never will.  It's just the way my brain worked out.  People like you are the kind of people that make spilling my guts worth while.  The people who go "I get it now." and can support others around them. 

You did use the correct term.  I am a transgender person.  I had no idea how difficult this journey would be.  The last five months of my life have been the most painful.  The most tiring.  The most exhausting.  The most bloody.  The most disgusting.  The most terrifying.  The most liberating.  The most fascinating and most eye opening.  I tell people.  If they can avoid doing this.  If they can live happily with themselves without this last step.  Don't do it. 

Just don't.  If you need it.  If you can't live without it.  Do it and never look back.  My entire World changed.  In ways I never thought about.  I know I'm kind of rambling on here but..There are people, uneducated people who think this is an easy thing you can just walk in, and walk out of.  I'm just now..Nearly five months later, being able to walk normally.  I'm very glad you understand us a little more now.  I hope others will do the same.

OH!  If I could equate how bad this hurt?  It was like being in a waffentrager and being shot by both a HESH round from a 183 and a T92 HE round right in the turret.  Twice.

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8 minutes ago, AnArmyofBun said:

Bigotry is not what you exhibited.  You simply had an opinion that you changed.  Usually this is what happens with intelligent people.  They think one way and then change their thinking when presented with new information that challenges their prior viewpoint.  A lack of education on the subject of people like myself is a very common thing.  Something I've tried to rectify as often as I can.  It's worn me down, considerably.  The fact of the matter is many people think we want to be trans.  No one *wants* to be transgender.  We just want to be the way we feel we should be.  I sure as hell don't want to be trans.  I never did.  I never will.  It's just the way my brain worked out.  People like you are the kind of people that make spilling my guts worth while.  The people who go "I get it now." and can support others around them. 

You did use the correct term.  I am a transgender person.  I had no idea how difficult this journey would be.  The last five months of my life have been the most painful.  The most tiring.  The most exhausting.  The most bloody.  The most disgusting.  The most terrifying.  The most liberating.  The most fascinating and most eye opening.  I tell people.  If they can avoid doing this.  If they can live happily with themselves without this last step.  Don't do it. 

Just don't.  If you need it.  If you can't live without it.  Do it and never look back.  My entire World changed.  In ways I never thought about.  I know I'm kind of rambling on here but..There are people, uneducated people who think this is an easy thing you can just walk in, and walk out of.  I'm just now..Nearly five months later, being able to walk normally.  I'm very glad you understand us a little more now.  I hope others will do the same.

OH!  If I could equate how bad this hurt?  It was like being in a waffentrager and being shot by both a HESH round from a 183 and a T92 HE round right in the turret.  Twice.

Thank you for your reply. I like to think that I am getting better from 'They are just circus freaks' mentality that a number of older generations (although not limited too) tend to exhibit. 

I can say I will never know the pain of this as I have and never will own a WaffenTrager E100. Although That would hurt. But I would also giggle so maybe not the quite the same!

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Bun is having a fantastic hair day.

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I have not been keeping up with my picture quota.

 

Bun gets all the chicks.

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Bun is both nervous and excited about the legalization of pot (even though it now occurs to me that it a cup).

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Almost forgot to post a bunny picture.

Bun's anatomy

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[Elvenlord 248]

Hey Bun!

Just popping in and seeing how things are. They looking like they are going well for you and I am glad of that!

 

Elven

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Bun is really excited about this carrot and probably @Elvenlord's return.

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SO MANY BUNS!

So, yeah.  If you guys wanna add me on Discord I'm AnArmyofBun#6312.  Things have been okay and I'm really glad Elvenlord has come back.  I've been woefully inactive.  I had *another* round of tissue cauterization and frankly I'm kind of sick of that part of my body being seared with Silver nitrate.  For those that do not know - silver nitrate is applied to Granulation Tissue when managing wound care after a major wound or surgery - and this is a Major wound.  The tissue is blood filled spongy junk that is meant to supply food to the healthy tissue beneath, however if it grows to be a problem it is cauterized to prevent the area from thickening or something horrific.  So, either way it's not fun and it's painful and it's as disgusting as you'd think.

 

Worth it though.  Hit me up, I've been terrible@fourms.

 

How's everyone else doing?  Please, share here and just..you know.  Converse.