Bun's thread of Transitional Cataloging and discussion (and shenanigans).

[Inciatus 1,124]

2 hours ago, AnArmyofBun said:

I don't think solono is trans. Did something happen?

I was making a joke off of last June or so I was jokingly shipping solono and Alesia that they would end up together and that it had actually occurred though Alesia had to ruin everything by finding a not solono.

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On 6/11/2015 at 0:29 PM, Inciatus said:

That's 26 years away. That point if further away in time than the time she has been alive. It's not really that pressing of a deadline. I'm sure she'll find someone (probably Solono) who will make her happy long before she is 50. 

[Inciatus 1,124]

There will very likely be a legitimate post tomorrow.

 

Bun is excited about new actual post.

[Inciatus 1,124]

 

For those of you who don't know fuzzy is also part of this ever growing group of trans-girls/bun's minions though I have not outright indicated it on this thread until now. 

Anyway, I am still very much supported by my parents and any money I earn I put into my business so I'm not really in the position to transition on my own or start it (though apparently it would have been easy enough to go to a doctor about it buuuuuuuut I didn't know I could just do that). Anyway I had been trying to talk about it for like a year and half but every time I would try I would freak out and not do it or it would get interrupted by something. Then my family started having issues like my mother's father dying and my sister have severe anxiety attacks that I felt selfish for wanting to deal with my problems when they were having problems that were arguably much worse. I decided to write a letter, so then I could say everything ahead of time and not freak out hopefully, to send my mother while she was in Rhode Island; though it turned out that she was leaving shortly after, so I decided to give her the letter in person. She was a bit late (because she drove from North Carolina so it isn't hard for a bit of inclement weather to cause issues) which gave me plenty more time to freakout and panic and sweat and shake (really it wasn't a very fun time). After a bit of small talk and such I gave her the letter and sat down to let her read it basically watching her and messaging our glorious chartmaker to keep myself calm. She didn't seem to freakout reading it which was good though she was very slow reading it which was a little concerning until she told me she was having trouble with my handwriting and the lighting which I was eventually able to fix once I remembered I had an overhead lamp in my living room. Also she did laugh a couple times at things I said like that I'm still a massive dork.

Anyway it went much better than expected. She did say that she had an idea that something was off though she wasn't exactly sure what whether I was gay, or bi, or trans or something and that she meant to talk with me about it but every time she tried some interruption would happen and then we didn't. After she finished the letter there was some hugging and such and we talked about things like how all this stuff works and what I want to do now (to which I actually answered dinner at first in a half joke). She asked if I had seen a doctor about this yet (which wasn't something I realized I could actually do on my own since I'm still on their insurance) (my answer should be obvious).

There were also some funny jokes/moments. We talked about that I do like boys and when asked if I am attracted to girls I said I was mostly just jealous of them to which she said that I at least had that part down. We also joked that my future husband, when that eventually happens, would likely wind up being happy and fat based on my cooking tendencies that a light dish will only use whole milk rather than cream normally a heavy cream. We also noted my normal method of hugging where I crack my upper back probably wouldn't last long because of sore boobs.

Everything did go far better than I ever expected which is pretty great and it sounds like she'll be willing to help this starting stuff move along fairly quickly. She brought the letter home so my father can read it. I was a more concerned about him because of some things he's said in the past fairly recently though she is pretty confident so I'll trust her. I haven't told my sister yet though probably will soon (for one she cannot keep a secret to save her life) though my mother and I expect she'll probably be really excited about the whole thing because she's wanted a sister for quite a long time and I guess she gets her wish :3.

Also I took this picture of myself with a wig and a bit of makeup on and showed it to my mother and she very much liked it that I looked like a mix of her and her sister when they were my age.

 

Fuzzy filly :3

*Actual footage of @AnArmyofBun reacting to this*

 

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3 minutes ago, Inciatus said:

After a bit of small talk and such I gave her the letter and sat down to let her read it basically watching her and messaging our glorious chartmaker to keep myself calm.

I have to say, this was an incredible experience.

[Alesia 339]

@Inciatus  I'm happy to see that it went well for you.

 

going to spoiler my stuff because I don't want to ruin the mood.

Two things happened over the course of this monday, other then my little shipping center being incredibly busy for once

First I committed to get started on HRT by the end of the year.  Put simply I  MUST start.  My entire...everything has gotten progressively worse to the point that I simply wont last another year.  If I turn 25 and haven't started I'm afraid that might be the straw that breaks the camel's back.

Second the relationship I've been in for a year started to show cracks.  My SO has not really talked to anyone at all including close friends but it was putting strain on the relationship, she feels guilty for not communicating with me.  There was some other stuff that I won't talk about publicly that did effect how I am looking at the situation.  Spent the better part of two hours laying in bed just numb because I do not want to go through heartbreak again.  If it does come to that I have to accept it, worse comes to worse I could ride all the dicks I want I guess. *shrugs*  To numb over it to really care right now, I've been so stressed over it that it's hard TO care anymore.

[Inciatus 1,124]

@Alesia I wish you luck though I think getting out of your current situation would probably help a lot especially given your parents will probably be much larger pains if/when they find out at least from what you've described.

I'm sorry to hear that and hope it goes well. They could just be upset or frustrated and need a bit of time to themselves. On the bright side if it doesn't, you can stop screwing up my Alesia/Solono shipping and date him. 

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Now that a small change has been processed, I have an announcement to make:

A week ago, I had what seemed like the start of a short chat with my former clan commander and person who I irritate extra often, @Inciatus.

I'd been having a pretty awful day, and after venting a bit, I was asked if anything good had happened.

I let loose. I came out to Inky as the woman I've long known myself to be… There was an awkward lull, then she came out to me. Neither of us were quite anticipating that. The resultant conversation lasted until 6 the next morning, and we got to know each other from an angle I doubt either of us had ever expected.

I'm not great at telling stories, but I'm sure you can imagine how delightful that was to experience. Finding yourself in a situation that can only be accurately described as a once-in-a-lifetime is astounding- It seems redundant to note that there’s nothing quite like it. Add in making an unexpected new connection with an old friend, and you have a remarkably good time on your hands.

I don't have any wonderful stories of acceptance to share, and I don't expect that soon I'll have any to regale you with, but that's okay. What matters to me is that I have the opportunity to bring to light the self I've long hidden from the world. It's not going to be easy, but I have hope for the future. I suppose that’s all that really matters.

For what it's worth, @AnArmyofBun, this thread has been inspiring. Its many ups and downs were and are an incredible testament to your resiliency, and to that of nearly everyone here. Thank you for taking the time and energy to share your story. It's been amazing to read (and occasionally participate in) something so powerful.

For those wondering about why I changed my screen name, I keep information compartmentalized fairly well as a matter of course. There are a number of people in my life that I’d rather not discover this on their own time. It’s not going to be easy at all to tell them, but at least I can steer that sort of conversation. Changing my name assisted with that.

[Inciatus 1,124]

Indeed it was a very amusing experience and quite a nice conversation (though I was really tired the next morning). I actually started talking with vac that night because I wanted to come out and share my excitement about my adhesive finally coming in after not having any for almost a month because of reasons. I have a set of breast-forms I wear at home (I live alone also) which help relieve the dysphoria some, though because I hadnt had the adhesive I couldnt really attach them to me and while I can wear them without the adhesive I can really only wear them with a sports bra and you still get annoying air pockets or wear part of it gets slightly sticky but not enough to actually stick just that as you move around it sticks then pulls off and makes a bubble and it's really annoying. The point is I hadnt been able to wear them in a long time and I was really happy about it and wanted to talk about it/show vac. When trying to create a spot in the conversation I could come out to her; she came out to me first and it was a really amusing time. It felt really surreal. I was actually worried vac was thinking that I was making it up and screwing with her for a bit.

Fuzzy bewbs with forms on for reference. :3

[Alesia 339]

11 hours ago, Inciatus said:

@Alesia I wish you luck though I think getting out of your current situation would probably help a lot especially given your parents will probably be much larger pains if/when they find out at least from what you've described.

I'm sorry to hear that and hope it goes well. They could just be upset or frustrated and need a bit of time to themselves. On the bright side if it doesn't, you can stop screwing up my Alesia/Solono shipping and date him. 

They've known for 2 years now...or something like that.  they've also gotten progressively worse about it (also they support trump so that should give you an idea....)

[Inciatus 1,124]

9 minutes ago, Alesia said:

They've known for 2 years now...or something like that.  they've also gotten progressively worse about it (also they support trump so that should give you an idea....)

I meant more so when they found the medicine. I figured they knew already.

Interestingly enough the only member of my family I'm concerned about at this point is also a Trump supporter, we're all very conservative (economically) and the rest of like Johnson.

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Good on you guys (Or Gals... Sorry) on coming forward! 

Always remember, it doesn't matter what you are, be it Gay, Bi, Trans, Dog, Cat, Fox. Bunny, Pony. Anything is fine as long as you are a good human being (Or whatever).

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

While I haven't had time to write up the long post I want to all of you. I want to say that I'm glad this thread has been a place where you can feel safe to say who you are. A while back I had said the thread really was no longer for me. Nor should it be. It should be for you. A resource to use as anything you can get from it. Inspiration. Support. Belonging. You can see there are many of us here. 

Trans and ally alike. I try to answer questions as best I can. To all of you especially in recent posts. I'm so proud of you all. Difficulty in life is what we must endure. Survive. Overcome. That is the price of this path to being who we actually are. I know things get in the way. Can be painful and most of all make you lose sight. 

Remember. We live in a time now where we are more accepted, visible and protected far more than any time in history. It will only get better. We are literally at the birth of it improving. Be patient. It's coming. 

I love you all. My little bunnies. 

[Inciatus 1,124]

I have enjoyed this thread very much; it's been pretty fantastic to be able to follow this story and enjoy this lovely little community of idiots who for some reason insist on playing a tanks game that everyone hates. While we probably do have an oversized trans group here relative to wotlabs population having the wotlabs population is nice because its provided at least some number to compare against and made me feel like less of an anomaly which is hard to find elsewhere. Also noone has been particularly extreme or ridiculous here like you can see in certain other areas like some reddits and tumblr and such. It's also honestly quite amazing that despite being at nearly 100 pages we've had almost no trolls except  lacey and whatever those couple comments were that drove signy off. This community, both this thread and wotlabs in general, is absolutely fantastic and I look forward to hopefully being able to share my stories and enjoying y'all's for quite some time.

That took me an excessively long time to write because I kept getting distracted by Bun's legobusinesscat gif.

One of the images I posted the other day gave me an idea. So here's a picture of Bun and her chicks (hopefully I didn't forget anyone).

@AnArmyofBun how is Signy doing?

[Alesia 339]

After two terrible days in a row and multiple break downs I've decided that I'm going to try and  take the first ride out that I can. Don't care if it's OK the other side of the country, I'm going to take it.  I'm not going to last here.

[AnArmyofBun 1,122]

14 hours ago, Inciatus said:

I have enjoyed this thread very much; it's been pretty fantastic to be able to follow this story and enjoy this lovely little community of idiots who for some reason insist on playing a tanks game that everyone hates. While we probably do have an oversized trans group here relative to wotlabs population having the wotlabs population is nice because its provided at least some number to compare against and made me feel like less of an anomaly which is hard to find elsewhere. Also noone has been particularly extreme or ridiculous here like you can see in certain other areas like some reddits and tumblr and such. It's also honestly quite amazing that despite being at nearly 100 pages we've had almost no trolls except  lacey and whatever those couple comments were that drove signy off. This community, both this thread and wotlabs in general, is absolutely fantastic and I look forward to hopefully being able to share my stories and enjoying y'all's for quite some time.

That took me an excessively long time to write because I kept getting distracted by Bun's legobusinesscat gif.

One of the images I posted the other day gave me an idea. So here's a picture of Bun and her chicks (hopefully I didn't forget anyone).

 

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@AnArmyofBun how is Signy doing?

Signy is doing pretty well. We're just trying to save as much as we can right now. She's helping me with everyday stuff that I need help with. Doctors galore. 

Shes just doing her thing otherwise. 

The thread is well moderated. Plus it's not some SJW nuclear mass. It's just people. Sharing and being who they are. It exists because wotlabs is actually full of really smart people that may not agree with what is said but know how to think objectively. It's why we're good at tanks. Im retired though. Never touching it again. 

The major thing is this thread is not an echo chamber for asspats.  It's a place where people can ask hard questions and get hard answers from actual trans people who are dealing with every day life. It's a good thing and I'm glad to have my little part in it. 

I play wow mostly these days on moonguard because I'm a disgusting pervert who role plays.  Also inc. your pictures are the best. You've really kept this thread going when i could not. Thank you for that. 

9 hours ago, Alesia said:

After two terrible days in a row and multiple break downs I've decided that I'm going to try and  take the first ride out that I can. Don't care if it's OK the other side of the country, I'm going to take it.  I'm not going to last here.

Just try to be as careful as you can Alesia. Remember. We have to use every advantage we have. Even if is one we really hate. I say that because giving up the normality of being one binary gender or another is terrifying. But if you can use it somehow for now?  Use it.  Don't be ashamed.

Focus on day to day. Your life is what matters. I know you're under the yolk right now but this trial by fire will end and you will come out on top as long as you don't stop fighting. 

[Inciatus 1,124]

55 minutes ago, AnArmyofBun said:

Also inc. your pictures are the best. You've really kept this thread going when i could not. Thank you for that. 

Glad to hear Signy is doing well.

Also yoke is the word you want though it did make for an interesting mental picture as well as some interesting and distracting reading trying to find a picture of a shark stuck under an egg yolk.

 

[Alesia 339]

4 hours ago, Inciatus said:

Glad to hear Signy is doing well.

Also yoke is the word you want though it did make for an interesting mental picture as well as some interesting and distracting reading trying to find a picture of a shark stuck under an egg yolk.

 

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9 minutes ago, Alesia said:

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I don't mean to disappoint but that is a pillory (I suppose they are actually stocks because they arent mounted on a pole/column); this is a yoke

 

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6 minutes ago, Inciatus said:

I don't mean to disappoint but that is a pillory (I suppose they are actually stocks because they arent mounted on a pole/column); this is a yoke

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Still acceptable *coughs*

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Deviants  

 

 

[Solono 5,518]

2 minutes ago, AnArmyofBun said:

Deviants  

Sup

[Inciatus 1,124]

In this thread @AnArmyofBun learns we are a bunch of kinky fuckers.

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[Solono 5,518]

I'm not kinky, I'm just the best.

[Inciatus 1,124]

3 hours ago, Solono said:

I'm not kinky, I'm just the best.

Its because youve got nice chemistry.